Better Days

I know it's been a while since I have posted on here, so I am going to get back on track. Sorry everybody!
Thanksgiving is coming up, and Christmas is just right around the corner. In that, I wonder whether things will turn out alright..just in case you didn't know, my family (not just my personal family, but my whole family, like aunts and uncles n' stuff) suffers from severe holiday drama. Fights, tragedy, and chaos have ruled this time of year for a long time...
But last year, things changed. The year before, ('09) we ended our family Christmas gathering on a bad note..long story short, there had been a terrible fight and my uncle went taking off on foot down the road, and my cousin Heather was in tears...and they both had to deal with the guilt of making a scene in front of the whole family, at least 30-40 people were there, not to mention the feelings hurt and the words that they said that they didn't mean...and the ones they did mean.
Talk about a sour Christmas! Then in '06 my cousin got in a car wreck just a few days before Christmas..I'll talk about that in a later post.
Anyway, so 2010 things changed..there were no big family fights, they were no tragedies, and we all stopped focusing on the gifts and embraced the gift we had in each other. Last year was the hardest year of my life, but the best Christmas ever.
I hope that this year is even better. It's been another hard year, and a great Christmas would be wonderful. I've had a few people ask me already what I want for Christmas, and every time I've had difficulty coming up with something..I don't really want anything. Maybe for my birthday (which is 2 days before Christmas) I can come up with something, but Christmas? It just doesn't feel right to ask for any gifts this year.
I couldn't quite explain my feelings until I heard this song on the radio called 'Better Days' by a band called Goo Goo Dolls. It really sums up what I really want, and it applies perfectly.

Check out these lyrics, and you'll see what I mean:

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kinda clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
'Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
Or designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words and sing out loud
'Cause everyone is forgiven now
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I need some place simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And that's faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child who saved this world
And there's ten million more who probaly could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words and sing out loud
'Cause everyone is forgiven now
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stopped this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words, and sing out loud
'Cause everyone is forgiven now
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

What do you want this year?